Josh Brage

This summer has brought a lot of change to my life. Things are still swirling around in my world. There are office transitions, role transitions, questions about everything right now are in abundance. A few things that I am noticing about myself are that this makes me uncomfortable and that I do not function terribly well. 

Discomfort. That is the name of the game for me at my job right now. I am just out of sorts. I am not relaxed. I am not as confident as I could be. I have discovered that order is very important to me. I am fairly spontaneous in some ways about some things, however in other ways I need order. For example, I tend to order the same things at restaurants. Another example is my room. After my room was completely demolished by my so-called friends, co-workers and PASTORS on Friday night, I simply HAD to get it all put back last night. It took me over an hour to get it all cleaned, vacuumed and everything back in order - it was then and only then that I could sit in my chair and begin to relax for the evening. And that was after 11:15! Needless to say, that is how I am thinking about my job right now as well. I probably will not be happy and/or comfortable until I am in my new office, organized and ready to roll. (That will be awhile still.)

Functioning. I need structure. I function very very well when I know who is in charge, what we are doing and what I am supposed to do. Right now, I know who is in charge. I know what we are doing. But I am not 100% on all that I am supposed to do. That is alright, but makes me a touch uncertain.

How do you handle change/uncertainty?