Josh Brage


Ok, I thought. . .
November 30, 2005, 2:48 am
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I thought we were supposed to focus on Jesus with our lives? You know what it means to live for God? It means LIVE FOR HIM! Do things for Him. Pray to/with Him. Worship, Praise Him. Live your life as a continually demonstration to Him that you want Him. That is what it means to live for God.

So why do we get so caught up with our lives? Our drama? Because we are selfish, self-centered and self-absorbed. That’s why. My life, who cares? Who cares if I get this or that, or this part of my life works out correctly? It doesn’t matter. Paul, “I have learned to be content with whatever state I am in.” Be content, not that you lives are like you want or that you are making this much money, or you have that perfect person, or whatever your dreams are. Please, have dreams. Dreams are the vehicle to our destiny, but still. Our dream is Jesus and His glorification. I am so sick of living for myself, while disguising it as a pursuit of His will for my life. Who cares! Live for God.

Like the song I just quoted previously, “What the soul wants, the soul wants.” Don’t ignore those things, they will probably do more for you in terms of finding what makes you and God passionate than anything else, but come on. Who are you living for? Yourself, because you want this perfect life that you think glorifies God or are you just living for Him and not really caring about all the rest of these temporal things, like money, fame, girls/guys, ministry! All of that stuff is dust in the wind! Live for God.

Tonight, God, I recommit my life to You. I will live for You and You alone. I want what I want. But God my wants and desires are deceptive and sneaky. They constantly what to drag me more towards the world than I realize. They clothe themselves as good things. A good living, a good girlfriend, a good American dream of a life. But God those are worldy pursuits that reek of worldliness. Protect me from them. Life the veil from my eyes, let me see them as they are – fallen desires that will lead to temporary happiness while somehow always keeping true happiness at arms length from my heart!

I recommit to chasing You and finding You. You are why I will wake up in the morning. You are why I will go to work tomorrow. You are my Reason! Help me God, loose my heart into a world where I am caught up in You. My heart is fallen and troublesome, sometimes it wants You, sometimes it tricks me and sometimes it is just plain sinful. Change my heart. Set it on fire for You once again. This is what I want – You. Take me there. I can’t get there by myself, God I have tried. You have to take me there! AMEN!



U2: A Man and A Woman (excerpts)
November 29, 2005, 2:42 pm
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“True love never can be rent, only true love can keep beauty innocent.

You can run from love and if it’s really love it will find you
and catch you by the heel.

The soul needs beauty for a soul mate, what the soul wants, the soul wants.”

Have a good day, all!



Muse: Time is Running Out
November 27, 2005, 9:18 pm
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I think I’m drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you’ve created

you’re something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me

I won’t let you bury it
I won’t let you smother it
I won’t let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can’t push it underground
you can’t stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I’m addicted

now that you know I’m trapped sense of elation
you’d never dream of
breaking this fixation

you will squeeze the life out of me

I won’t let you bury it
I won’t let you smother it
I won’t let you murder it

our time is running out
our time is running out
you can’t push it underground
you can’t stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh



God as Initiator
November 27, 2005, 9:02 pm
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Something very profound my pastor said this morning has continued to resonate inside me. God is the Initiator of relationship. He is the One who seeks us and desires to have relationship with us. Proof: “We love Him, because He first loved us.” (1 John 4:19) We get this confused and therefore the way we relate to God is off, however subtly. We are not the pursuer. God has been pursuing us for a very very long time. That explains the entire Jesus and the Cross thing.

Once we realize that God is after us and that all we need to do is stop running and respond to Him in love and worship we enter into a relationship with Him that we all want. “I have a brother, when I’m a brother in need. I spend my whole time running and He spends His running after me.” (U2 – The First Time)

Here is what this understanding does: it takes the pressure off of us. Our walk with God has very little to do with how much we do this or that or how often we do this thing. Realizing that God is chasing us, makes prayer a lot easier. It isn’t about us convincing a distant God to listen to us and respond to us. Prayer now becomes a responsive thing, where all we do is ask questions and then listen to the answers and then act accordingly. It takes us out of the driver’s seat.

This way of thinking and responding to God is how Jesus lived His life. “I do what My Father tells Me to do.” (I don’t know where this is, but if you need to know I will find it.) This is a lighter way to live than the way that I have previously thought. It enables us to live our lives and respond to God when He wants us to. Oh by the way, we are never really in charge of our lives anyway – God has it figured out. We just need to listen to Him and follow Him. I hope this helps someone. I am about to post a song or two as well, surprise not from U2.



Coherency
November 26, 2005, 5:11 am
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Here is some of my daily reading thoughts and excerpts.

“Most of us are not spiritually coherent, because we are more concerned with being coherent externally.

Restate to yourself what you believe, then do away with as much of it as possible, and get back to the bedrock of the Cross of Christ. If we get away from brooding on the tragedy of God upon the Cross in our preaching, it produces nothing. It does not convey the energy of God to man; it may be interesting, but it has no power. But preach the Cross and the energy of God is let loose.”
– Oswald Chambers (My Utmost for His Highest; November 25)

“(So people come up to me and ask me…)I know that all God’s commands are spiritual, but I’m not. Isn’t this also your experience? Yes. I’m full of myself after all… I’ve spent a long time in sin’s prison. What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doings thing I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary.
But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotagin my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes, I can will it, but I can’t do it.
The answer is, thank God, that Jesus Christ can and will.” – Paul (Romans 7)

So this leads me back to a great question: How in the world do I live out my Christian life? Obviously a trait of Christianity is the fact that we “don’t have what it takes” so then what is the point? Doesn’t this lead us to live a life of Christian despair? What and where is the balance? How do I live?



Well, I am back!
November 26, 2005, 5:08 am
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After a few months I have returned! I fell into peer pressure and decided to maintain my blog on xanga. I have nothing against xanga or those who xanga, but it just isn’t for me. So, I am back here on blogspot with a new and improved blog look and hopefully, I can maintain some people’s attention here as well. I will post in the next few minutes and begin to have content! It is good to be home.



Apology
November 11, 2005, 12:48 am
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My highest apologies. My laptop had been down, therefore the lack of blogging.
I have been posting on my xanga.
Here is the link, where I will continue to post most (all) of my blogs.

http://www.xanga.com/thehosh