“Are you on your way to minister or ministering on your way?”.
This has been the resounding question in my head all of this week. Along with “Hold everything loosely.” Ministry is an interesting entity. It requires so much from you. It requires virtually everything that you have emotionally, mentally, spiritually and often physically. Balance is hard. Keeping the right priorities is difficult. Keeping your own life separate is damn near impossible (at least for me.)
Last Monday, I was let go from ORCC and Catalyst.
This was somehow not surprising, however it was also very difficult to hear. Throughout the day, I was both relieved and pissed off. Wednesday sucked, I felt unwanted and unneeded. By the end of the week, I calmed down and have now become far more resolute.
I am going to go to school. I am going to read my Bible more. I am going to get a better job. I am going to work on building some freelance design clients. I am going to continue to impact Catalyst in whatever ways I know how! I am going to offer my creativity, my passion, my excitement and my gifts to continue to help further the Kingdom to the youth culture of Denver. None of that has changed! In a lot of ways, I am free. Free to just go be me.
It is not going to be easy. “But with God’s help, I shall become myself!” The largest thing that I will miss sorely is working everyday with my best friend, Mark. That truly sucks. I will miss working with the interns daily. But that will all be alright. I still see Mark plenty! The interns are about to start getting schooled by me at Axis and Allies on a consistent basis. And above all of this, I trust the Lord, I am chasing Him and He is chasing me! Hey, sometimes you can’t have your cake and eat it too, well, maybe for a little while.
“I flew too close to the sun on wings of pastrami.”
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